This is an open letter from me to you. I truly hope you listen because I don’t know how else to say this to you any more honestly. I had to get this off of my chest because I can’t watch you continue to live the way you’re living anymore. You deserve better. So here goes….
June 10, 2011/3:49am
Hey you. Yes, you reading this. Just do it! Don’t act like you don’t know what I’m talking about. You know exactly what I’m talking about. I’m talking about that thing you think about all the time. No, not that thing. That thing that follows you around and whispers in your ear and makes you so freakin’ vulnerable just to think about it. Yes, that thing! That thing you’ve been putting off doing because you’re afraid of how it might turn out. I know you’re afraid you might fail. I know you’re afraid to be honest with yourself. I know you’re afraid to be that honest with your family and friends. I know you’re afraid of what other people might think of you but you know what?
This is your life not theirs. You only get one shot to be happy. One shot to really live this life. One shot to be the person you were truly meant to be.
Stop thinking about it and psyching yourself out. I believe in you!
I promise you won’t fail if you just keep pushing. I’m not saying it won’t be difficult. All I’m saying is that you will get through it and you will be so much stronger because of it. Stop being so damned scared of yourself and choosing security over what you know in your heart is meant for you.
I mean, what’s the point of security if you live the rest of your life in fear and doubt? Doesn’t that defeat the purpose of actually living your life? I’m talking REALLY living your life. Not the life your friends say you should have, or your parents say you should have, or society says you should have; but the life you know YOU know you were meant to live.
I know you're scared. I know you have doubts. I feel the same way sometimes. But if you want things to change then you have to stop thinking so much and just do! Your whole life has led you to this point and now it’s time to make a decision. Either you continue to live in fear of what might happen? Of what they might think of you? Of what if it doesn’t work?
You take a chance on yourself. Step out on faith in yourself. Demand better for yourself! Be completely honest with yourself!
So what if they judge you! So what if they don’t understand or agree. So what if they talk about you. Guess what: you never had any control over that to begin with. People disagree with you, talk about you, and judge you already so you might as well give them something to really talk about, lol. Plus, people fear what they don’t understand. They’ll try to tell you you can’t do something because they’re too scared to do it. Don’t let their insecurities and ignorance become yours.
When you love who you are now, who you’re supposed to be will happen automatically.
You are beautiful and don’t let anyone tell you differently. Who you are deep down inside is valid. Your dreams are valid. They are your birthright! You deserve to be happy. You don’t have to continue living this way because we both know it’s keeping you unhappy. I know it’s what you’ve grown accustomed to. I know it feels safe and secure but you are not happy there. You’re quietly killing yourself and no one even notices that you’re silently in so much pain. You hide so much from all of them. But I know better. I notice. You’re not fooling me and you’re not fooling yourself.
You have to make a change for the better and the only way that’s going to happen is if you make a choice. Right here. Right now in the cathedral of your heart that you deserve better for yourself. You have a right to live a happy and full life.
I know you may feel like I don’t understand what you’ve been through. Or it’s not that easy to just change, but it really is. Making a choice is the simplest most difficult thing in the world. There is so much life changing power in making a choice. You have that power.
I know you may not believe this but I mean it from the bottom of my heart: I love you and I believe in you. I want to see you be happy. I want to see you. I mean, really see you. Not the you you’ve pretended to be all these years for everyone else, but the you YOU know you are when nobody’s looking. That you is beautiful.
That you deserves a chance to live. That you deserves to realize their dreams. So here’s my challenge for you:
- Get a pen and a pad and write down what you want for your life.
- Write down what’s holding you back.
- Write down what you’re most afraid of.
- And write down what you know deep down you need to do despite how scared you are.
Then do it!
99% of the time we’re scared of rejection and failure.
I read somewhere that ‘Silence is the incubator of fear.’ I believe that to be true. You gotta learn to bathe yourself in the fires of struggle & adversity. Learn to quench your thirst with sweat, blood, and tears. Feed off of rejection & heartbreak and grow stronger so you and only you can forge yourself into something undeniable!
Don’t be afraid to ask for help either. There’s not a problem in this world you can go through that someone, somewhere has not written the solution down in a book somewhere. Seek out the answers. You can’t be lazy when you’re trying to change you life for the better. I know it will be difficult (and it WILL be difficult). You may feel like giving up.
You have to be BOLD and be proactive. Seek out people who have done what you want to do successfully. Ask advice. Learn from failure (yours and theirs).
You can have the life you want. Your life is waiting for you to live it. I love you and I believe in you. I’ll be here cheering you on. I will show you how easy it is to change the world by simply making a choice. I wrote this on June 10, 2011 at 3:49am in my living room simply because I was thinking of you and felt compelled to share. If after you finish this letter you a tiny part of you has changed for the better, then I've done my part. Help me to change the world by sharing this letter with anyone you think needs to read it. If I die tomorrow then know that I used my life to inspire love in yours. Now it's time to pay it forward by LIVING YOUR LIFE FULLY AND HONESTLY and inspiring others to do the same. Own the beauty in yourself and share it with the world.
You are beautiful. I love you.
Peace, Passion & so much LOVE,
-Lee Edward Colston II, Actor, Author, Teacher, Dreamer